How would you act, what would you do, who would you be, if you knew you were totally safe, secure, supported and loved by the universe? How would your life be different if you knew life was there for you, totally supporting you?

These are the questions that have arisen for me as I first realised that not only was I in fear of life itself, but then that in fact life had been supporting me all along in everything I wanted to do and had done. 

I can now feel the power arising within myself deep in the base of my being. At this time the power is a overwhelming. So the power is coupled with fear. Fear not of life but fear of the power. The limitlessness of my being as a creative force. The limitations I believed were being imposed on me from the outside world I had placed on myself in a crazy belief to keep myself safe . . . when I already was safe. To make myself secure . . . when I already was secure. To get love . . . when I already was loved. 

So what now? What do I do knowing I am safe, secure, supported and loved? When there is nothing left to get what then? What would you do?

The mad internal battle between my ego and my soul. Between fear and love. How do I know which voice is which? How do I know which is the voice of love? 

The egos voice is so clear and seems so true. The facts seem to speak for themselves. Clearly I am a victim. Clearly the other has done this to me. The action my ego is telling me to take seems so obviously right. And clearly that action is justified. . . . or is it?

But the other voice slowly is growing clearer and louder. This is the voice of my soul or my essence. It questions every statement of 'truth' my ego wants so desperately for me to believe. It asks over and over. "What do you truly desire? Do you want to be right or happy? How long do you want to remain a victim of the other? How long do you want to sleep and suffer? You created all this so isn't it about time you took responsibility and chose otherwise"

Even in breath sometimes the voices blend into each other. It is so hard to tell them apart. They both feel like 'me'. But as I rest and relax I always know the truth.

Judgment, criticism, rejection, disapproval and false persecution are our fast track to know ourself and thus to ultimately know our life purpose. Only then may we truly live.

Know thyself and you will know God. Reveal yourself fully, every belief, judgment, projection, desire, contraction, limiting thought, suppressed emotion and place of greed. Lay it all open with radical self honesty. Let the truth burn away whom you are not. Then through this dark night know the light and the love which you are.

Just as the breath moves through our physical body, spirit flows through our soul. Breath and spirit, the same essence in different forms. As we contract our breath we contract our spirit and our connection to the divine within us, our essence. The breath brings life and vitality to our body in the same way spirit nourishes and brings our soul to life. It is in a state of relaxed surrender that we allow the breath to breath us and spirit to live through us.